So today I was thinking
Why don't we all just start to think
for a moment
please listen to what I have to say
Good. Alright. Here goes
Do you remember those days when you thought someone in your life that was there
someone who stayed around and cared
would always stay there and share
love and unending emotion with you?
and that day that they left felt like death
like all you knew was falling down down
and all you could say was
why did this all happen to me?
i thought I was free
from this, painful life I never thought would come to me
Has finally hit and now I can only drift
into a lonely
and depressed state of being which
never seems to go away.
and you sat there all alone on the floor
wondering why pain had coming knocking at your door
You cried out with such a loud, longing voice
to something you didn't really understand and you said
"please, my darling hold my hand
Give me life, fill me up
I need to feel your touch
on my cheek
raise my face
and wipe that space
where these tears have been falling
I need you right now please
Whoever you are
I need you, right now
And would you believe that it that moment you didn't feel a thing
You heard only the sound of your own breath filling
up your lungs with air
But there was more to it there
that breath in your lungs
that life giving gift of air
that gives you strength to go on
that sustains your life so you could long
for something out there
something or someone who cares
chasing after that light you talk of in prayer
That breath you took
that was significant
Does that make any sense?
Of all the millions and billions of people in this world,
Only you have been given that one breath
So inhale, exhale
and go forth
and take on this life that has been set before you
No more tears, no more worry
It's time to let your feet scurry
into that life that God has prepared you to lead
Those days in your past may have meant something then
but in this here and now, only you can
pick yourself up,
Look straight ahead
and with no regrets
say you did your best
and that god will always be there
even when no one else is.
You are worth more than what you know
You have been given life,
let it show.
That vlog where I go to six flags and James films most of the time. Ah well, I only got el toro cause they were gonna kick me out if I filmed any more but whateva, enjoy the back of Nikki's head in that segment.
Okay a certain someone talked me into getting my vlog starting back up so I decided to get down to business in uploading this. I also filmed another vlog today which will be up later tonight. Hope ya'll enjoy it. This spans over several days and I forget exactly when so just enjoy it for whatever it is.
Welp here's Wednesday! First wednesday vlog in a while where I DIDN'T just go to PBBK. I play some Counter-Strike, Team Fortress 2, Talk to the camera, and go to PBBK. Also, I play a song for u guise over here:
Day 1: We go to Annabel's Pizza, Kick Michelle, arrive at lake Champion, play billiards, and John Folta shows his b-balling skills.
Day 2: Lots of stuff. We wake up, give tattoos, push Kyle off a ledge, Trenton is fabulous, we watch people on the swing, I draw a shark, and we sing worship music. (For those involved in wrestlefest, I'll send you all the fight videos soon)
Day 3: We play some games and then my camera runs out of batteries. ): If you wanna know what I did the rest of the day, go to John's video "MTV CRIBS JERSEY EDITION" on Facebook.
Day 29 of the Vloggity. Not much happened today, so I fill up time showing the Miis I made of Myself, Brett, and John on my 3DS.
But anyway, how about I make a good old fashioned blog post? No adventures these days unfortunately, I've been swamped with schoolwork and stress and the like. Unfortunately, I'm sure you guys have noticed that I've stopped discussing God that often. Truth be told, I haven't had any major revelations for a long time and my relationship with God has not been the greatest these days. Not sure what it is, but I can't seem to hold conversation with Him like I used to be able to. But I'm going to try and Blog about such things in text after these daily videos as well. That way I can balance my life and my mind at the same time. Also, it'll be good to get some thoughts off my mind so I'm not swamped with thoughts all day. Anyway, these days have been quite a mixed bag. I have days which make me feel wonderfully alive, and others where I just feel sick to my stomach. I don't feel like whining about my problems on here, so I'm going to assume you, reader, know what the main issue on my mind has been. It's been becoming far less of an issue lately, but it still does rear its ugly head at least once a day and messes up my thought processes and well-being of my stomach for a bit. But everyday I've got to remind myself that it was in God's plan and that he has SO much more planned for me. My life is so much better now after that whole ordeal and I'm glad that it's over. Without it, I may have never known who I am, and my potential.
But anyway, these days I've been running a lot and working out and such. All part of trying to discipline myself and grow into a much better man than I have been. It's time to stop whining and be a true man of God. But of course, as a teenager, I have NO idea what that means. But priority status right now is to grow closer with God again and share his love with others yet again. Pray for me if you can.
Anyway, I'll most likely continue these short blog posts after my vlog if I wanted to say more than I put in the vlog itself. Sound good? Good. Now go tell your friends and family how much they mean to you. I dare you.
Days 19-24 of the Vloggity. FINALLY UP. Thank god, I had too much footage on my camera at this point. I think the funniest part about this is that these would have been TERRIBLE vlogs if they were released separately due to NO FOOTAGE AT ALL. It must have been fate. Anyway, enjoy 11 minutes of my face.
Day 17 of the Vloggity. I go to small group and stuff. We also did a hilarious roleplay aventure but its like 30 minutes long and youtube wont let me upload it as is, so Ill probably upload the separate parts soon.
Day one of the vloggity. Apologies for the unnecessarily long and boring driving part. I meant to edit it and add music but Windows movie maker wasnt working :/ But anyhooz, here's the day 1. It'll get better hopefully haha.